Patience

Everyday I change. Everyday I learn something new. Today I learned that I am extremely impatient with myself. These lyrics come to mind...

I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice when I'm not around
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special

Oh, Radiohead how you describe me sometimes. While I love myself, I am often too hard on myself. I look in the mirror everyday and smile but that doesn't stop me from noticing imperfections, things I want to change. I know I'll get the body I want by staying on paleo and doing CrossFit. I just have to be patient. But then I think of all the other things I've been patient for that I haven't gotten. Love comes first to mind. Years and years of singlehood. Years and years of patience...I grow frustrated. I lose faith sometimes. But I can't give up and settle. I have to stay true to myself. I will never settle for less than I deserve. I will push myself to be better. I will wait for better.

I am aware of my strengths as I am aware of my weaknesses. I will keep my chin up. I will continue to smile even if I feel down about something. I will continue to treat others with kindness. I will endure.

Next tattoo- ENDURE.